More on our adoption journey...

Chris and I are trying to be good at not forging ahead on our own will. We want to have peace and God's blessing every step of the way. Right now, we don't have it. There have been several times over the past years that Chris and I will both get the message, from God, that we are to adopt. So, we will begin looking into it. This has been the loudest voice so far. So, I have been contacting agencies, reading books, praying, talking to people, etc. I have been convinced that finally this is it. The more I look into agencies the more unsettled I become. I have no peace at all yet with them, any of them. I have not been kept from having kids. I am content to have the four we have and I am content with however many more God wants to give us. I want to love on kids. I want to provide a loving home that will offer consistency, training, and unconditional love. I want to show more kids how great our Lord is! What a mission field! To me, mothering is the most amazing calling and I feel so blessed to be able to be the mommy of my children and whomever is to come. This being my heart, I just want to help if God is saying someone needs help. I am not going to spend $40,000 and go "shopping" for a child. I cannot possibly say yes to one and leave the others. (Unless that is what God wants us to do. Then He will provide everything we need so that we can.) So, I am praying about what God's plan might be. I think, right now, that He may have more creative plans than traditional adoption. Maybe some kids down the street that we get to know will need a home. Maybe we don't adopt, but just have an open door policy that if you need a bed, a meal, a listening ear, some loving and praying, you can come here. Maybe we are just to be that safe house for the kid who needs help. Or, maybe there is a pregnant girl out there who will cross our path and see our family as a place she wants her baby to grow up. Who knows. So, in case you have been wondering what the status is, its waiting on God. All we know is that He is up to something. Discovering what it is is always so exciting!!!