My underlying issue that is the umbrella for all my other issues is self discipline. I almost completely lack self discipline. I have no idea why. I do though, and it is time I grow up and accept that this is hard for me. I need to mature past using this as an excuse to live undisciplined. I need to fall on the grace of my Lord, do the hard work of forming new habits, and get disciplined! MUCH easier said than done. For all you disciplined, A type personalities, you are rolling your eyes saying, "Oh come on, just do it!" Well, for one who is not used to making myself do anything unpleasant, it is very hard to overcome the, "I don't wanna's!" Does anyone relate?
Here are the issues that fall under this umbrella that are affecting my life:
- going to bed too late
- waking up too late
- following through when giving a child a job
- following our school schedule
- eating healthily
- doing my jobs when they need to be done (laundry, starting meals on time, etc., etc., etc.)
So, pray for my attitude. I am already dreading the week (not a great start, huh?). I am so sick of trying to train my children to be disciplined when I am so obviously not. It is time. So, here goes nothing!