I thought I was through blogging tonight. Then, I got a feed that 10 million miles had posted again. I just love her blog!!! Her post convicted me and I had to share.
I think I am, in a way, mourning the fact that my Noah is going to be my last baby. I don't yet know how many children we will be blessed with in our life time, but as far as biological children, Noah is last. Even if we adopt, we most likely won't get a baby. Even if we do, my body won't nurse him/her. So, I cling to every moment of Noah's sweet baby-ness. This might have something to do with why he still gets up in the night to nurse. Allowing this to continue brings me back to why I am writing this. Staying up late to have "me" time and then getting up all night long with Noah has caused me to be exhausted in the morning. Ugh, mornings.
There was once a day when I would wake up before my children and great them in the morning singing:
"This is the day, this is the day that the Lord has made, that the Lord has made. Let us rejoice. Let us rejoice and be glad in it, and be glad in it. This is the day that the Lord has made! Let us rejoice and be glad in it! This is the day! This is the day that the Lord has made, soooooooooooooooo
Rise and shine and give God the glory, glory! Rise and shine and give God the glory, glory! Rise and shine and (clap) give God the glory, glory, children of the Lord!!!!"
I would see their sweet smiles as they woke up and hugged me and we began our day joyfully!
That was then, this is now. Now, I have 10 and 8 year old daughters who can do everything needed in the morning. They can help my four year old get cereal and juice. They know what TV channels are allowed in the morning, and they can get everyone going. Lately, I am ashamed to say, I have been taking full advantage of this. I stay up late. I get up and nurse several times a night. Then, I sleep in while my children take care of themselves. I know! I can't believe how horrible this is even as I admit it to you.
This post written by 10 million miles convicted me of something that I already knew. In fact, over the last couple of days, Proverbs 31 has been running through my mind. You know the part where she rises while the sun isn't even up yet and prepares food for her family? So, God had already been nudging my heart with this issue. Then this post has pushed me over the edge. I have been lazy. I have been selfish. I confess and now I need to change.
Visit 10 million miles HERE and see what she had to say.