I know I am not alone when I say that everything feels out of control. Well, I can't say EVERYTHING anymore (thank goodness!). The house has been cluttered and crazy, school has been haphazard, eating habits horrible, exercise none, budget control lost, sleep deprived............ Have you ever been able to relate? Maybe not.
Well, we are finally on track with school, and even though there isn't a pretty schedule in place, we are getting it done. I haven't figured out the scheduling dilemma since we added our new baby 4 months ago now. The only thing that has a time, is that everyone must be awake, dressed, teeth and hair brushed, beds made, and downstairs eating breakfast by 8am. If we accomplish this, we are off to a good start. Then we throw school in as it fits, usually while I am nursing and they can gather around me on the couch.
The house is feeling better. The kids are finally consistent in their chores. Actually the big change is that I am finally consistent in holding them accountable for their chores. So, we all feel better that the general living areas are clean. Now, I have to figure out how to get to the closets and clutter places while managing, parenting, teaching, nursing, cooking, etc. That is something I am working toward.
What is really crazy right now is my self control when it comes to eating. Lets just say there is no self control. I was just starting to do well, and then we visited family for Easter. All the social food and Easter candy threw me into a tailspin. I am over weight. I have low energy. We are all gaining. My husband has high blood pressure. I have many heart problems in my genetics. We HAVE to get this under control.
I have recently been reading The Flat Belly Diet book. I really hate the title to this book. It kept me from picking it up for a long time. It just sounds like a fad diet. It is very interesting, though, and may help with the heart issues. Now, I just have to begin......again. I also have to get my tennis shoes on and put in my exercise video again!!! Why is that so hard? Whenever I actually exercise, I always feel better and start eating better. So why won't I get going? Actually, the main reason right now is that there are only so many hours in a day. My plate is VERY full right now with the baby. Still, it only takes about 30 min., so I don't have much of an excuse.
So the personal battles continue. I just keep repeating that "I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me." I know treating my body well is part of God's plan for me. I know that training my children up is part of God's plan for me. I know that being a good steward of all these blessings is part of God's plan for me. I know that loving on my kids so that they learn His love is part of God's plan for me. So, because of Him, I have hope!!! One step at a time, my life can be in the order it should be in. God is a God of order not craziness. I will fail every time I try to accomplish all of this by myself. With Him, ALL things are possible!!!!