Easter!

I can't believe in all my update posts, I left our Easter!!! Again, I will have to post pics soon. Sorry!

I can't post pictures!

I CAN NOT find the cord which hooks my camera up to my computer! How frustrating!!! I have birthday pics as well as pics from my MIL's visit. Hopefully I will be able to add them soon.

MIL, Carolyn visited!!!

Carolyn, my mother-in-law visited recently. We had, what I think, was probably our very best time together. We had a wonderful time! She arrived on a Thurs. night. Friday, we had fun running errands and preparing for Chris's birthday. He got a HUGE surprise which was really fun for us! Saturday, we all piled in the car and went on a road trip. We traveled through the beautiful Hill Country, visiting Kerville and Bandera before returning home. There were some festivals and shopping that we took part in. Sunday, we went to church together and then celebrated Chris the rest of the day. Monday, we went to the zoo. Tuesday, we drove out to the San Marcos outlet malls. Sometimes staying so busy wears me out and I don't enjoy it. I tend to be a homebody, but we had a great time everyday!

Happy birthday to my men!

In April, all the males in our family have their birthdays. Kaiden turned 3, Kevin turned 5, and Chris turned 37. We had a great time with all the birthdays! Our first family birthdays happened this month. After a lot of discussion and thought, Chris and I both decided that family birthdays made more sense. Why did I think spending a lot of money, having a huge stressful party, and an enormous amount of gifts was the only way to say, "You are special to me. I love you!" That is ridiculous!!!! Plus, it has made the kids so greedy and have such a sense of entitlement. These are ugly character traits if you ask me. We experienced wonderful family time together, each birthday person felt appreciated and special. What is more exciting is that they are not planning what they want for THEIR next birthday, they are excited about planning their sibling's birthdays!!! What a change of heart, and so quickly! I have been very blessed to hear their discussions and planning to make someone else's day special. Yea!

We are pregnant!!!

It has been a long time since I have posted anything. Our big announcement is that we are pregnant!!!! I am not sure how many weeks along I am. I will go to the doctor May 8th and then let you know. I am somewhere between 7-9 1/2 weeks along. Soon I will figure out how others have put little baby development trackers on their blog and add one to mine.

Kaiden - "I love you"

This will not come across at all in a blog post, but for my own memory I wanted to record it.

Today, Kaiden climbed in my lap and said,"I love you." I responded, "I love you, too!" Then he shouted it. So, I shouted it. Then he whispered it, so I whispered it. At this point he CRACKED up and started trying to do something with his tongue. I didn't understand what he was doing at first. Then, I realized that when I said, "I love you," silently, he thought it was funny how my tongue made the "L" of love.

Throughout the day, Kaiden would come over and whisper, "I love you," and then wait with great anticipation. I would then mouth it back and he would laugh.

This evening, he started doing a shy little giggly laugh every time I said it, like he was embarrassed that he was so loved. I wish each of you could have actually seen him. He was SO cute!

Well, I know this is random in your world, but it was such a sweet day for us both. He was so precious!

Our baby journey...

Several times, on this blog, I have journaled about my desire for more children. I have covered both biological birth and adoption. I haven't mentioned this in a while in an attempt to be content. I was realizing that I was becoming obsessed. I tend to get an idea and dive into it. I read. I research. Anyway, I was convicted that I was actually sinning. I was misusing my time. I was neglecting my children (ironically), to study on the computer. I was not involving my husband, who didn't want any more at the time, and so not submitting to his lead at all.

Chris does want a big family and also feels called to adoption. Several times, we have felt the go ahead to begin the process. Then, it feels like the brakes are applied. This area has been very confusing to us. We are at peace, though. God has definitely given us a heart to help children who do not have a family. We want to be available to whomever God sends. We are content to wait on Him and His timing.

Meanwhile, I was really getting the bug for another biological child. My fears were those shared by Chris. What if I die? I have had four c-sections and so do not have the same freedom that some women do. We have to determine how much my body can take. Chris has always been strongly against me getting pregnant again.

Since we moved, God has been teaching me a lot about submission to Him as well as to Chris. God gave me the grace to truly be content to follow Chris in this area. If I was to never be pregnant again, I was completely okay with that. I gave the desire for more babies up to God and determined to follow Chris's heart, knowing that he did not want any more biologically.

Well, God has changed Chris's heart!! This time, without any of my sinful manipulation that I have been so famous for in the past. We have decided to have another baby!!!! I was late this past month and thought I might be pregnant. I am thankful that I was not, because that would have happened without Chris's blessing. Now, we both really want a baby! So......hopefully God will bless us with a pregnancy and healthy baby soon!

I have joked with Chris, that this baby will need friends. It seems so lonely for our next to be almost 4 years from the next youngest. Our children right now are 8 1/2, 7 1/2, almost 5, and almost 3. Who knows. Maybe twins are in the cards. Or, maybe we will find ourselves adopting soon. Only God knows at this point. I am just excited to be His child and able to have the freedom and peace to follow Him!

I will keep you updated!